day 1 of 30

So...I didn't really get a chance to work out today, BUT~ on a good note, I never stopped going! I cleaned carpets and scrubbed the kitchen down good, worked, did groceries, played with kids, pulled weeds~ And on and on! so I guess I can say that in a sense I did get to work out. Tomorrow I will most definetly work out though, I am getting up early if I have to. I need to still take my before picture though, NOT looking forward to that at all. It sucks when you do something like that and have to look at it! especially at the begining of a workout or weight loss plan. It gets discouraging! I may not look like I'm "overweight" and no, I'm not tottaly, but I have never in my life been the weight I am now nor have I have issues with what to wear due to it not fitting. I'm determined to get my life back and get to where I can put on what I want in my closet and not worry, Not think twice about what it looks like or how it will fit, or maybe if I suck in a little more! NO!! NO MORE! I feel ok about today though, I really wish I could have had an actual cardio work out. But like I said, if I have to wake up at 630, then I'll do it~ I'm working out tomorrow and continuing this. 30 days really isn't that much! I can do it! stay focused and stay strong!!! GO GO GO!!!! (guess I better get in bed seeing that it's almst 10 then huh!) :)

30 days

So I have decided togive myself a challenge. A 30 day challenge. At the point I'm at in my life I should be more comfortable with who I am. I'm not, my self confdence is low~ which doesn't help me to push myself. So I am giving self a 30 day makeover. Starting monday, I will take a before photo, I will start working out, 5 days a week. I am going to get myself back to where I know I feel good about myself, where I want to be. Do I think I"m going to loose 20 pounds in 30 days? No, but do thin I can change and improve myself to see a difference in 30 days. Sugar...gone, soda? no problem, gave it up a while ago. Limit my carbs, ok! I am going to do this for me. I have to! I have never been the weight I am, Never felt the pressure of such low self esteem, It really takes a toll on a person and I'm done with letting it control me. When a person is self concious everything makes them feel bad or is taken differently and any compliments they do get, they dont believe. I know I can do this....Thus the blog. I figure this way I can track my progress...see how I"m doing, look at my self in new light. One full of motivation to change myself. Everyone is responsible for their own destiny, And their own attitude and feelings on themselves. I need mine to be positive. We foud out three days ago that Tristan is Autistic, So I need to be the best me and most ready me to help him progress and develop how he needs. So! STARTING MONDAY! HERE WE GO!